A Teaching from Source: The value of incongruity

Over the last year, I have recognized that I have started speaking to myself out loud as if I were addressing a group. I kept catching myself and have tried and tried to stop doing it. But I can't stop, and started to become more and more frustrated. Why am I pretending to speak to an audience that isn't there?

I notice that the desire to speak is preceded by a huge energetic force that surges through my body. It is exciting, awe inspiring and always teaches me valuable lessons. I can see now that I misinterpreted these messages as something that needs to be communicated to others. I would create videos for social media. But rather than people finding value in them, I noticed time and time again, these videos fall flat with people. In fact, I have fewer and fewer interests in my videos than ever! So I remained very perplexed. Why is this even coming up if not to share with others?

But one day, the answer hit me hard. I am channeling Source wisdom. And because one of my abilities in this life is communication, it comes out through my speaking voice. I can't NOT do it. To hold it inside my body without speaking it, creates immense suffering for me. I feel disconnected from the very source in which it came. Therefore, I am disconnected with myself.

I went through a period of doubting that anyone could even channel Source energy. I rolled around in all the self-doubt and reasons why this is just wishful thinking and imagination, or some sort of ego trip. Eventually I was brought to an impasse in my thinking. I was forced to see the incongruity of my claims to reality.

My Own Incongruity Revealed

Perfect Universe:

On one hand, I claim to perceive that the universe is in perfect order on absolutely every level. I perceive that there is nothing in opposition to expansion. No exceptions. I perceive we are powerful co-creators who can create anything we want for ourselves, even if it is negative in experience. I perceive that there are no mistakes and everything happens exactly how our souls designed it.

Imperfect Universe:

On the other hand, I doubt the information that comes in and dismiss it as a misinterpretation. I tell myself that I am not powerful, that I am in opposition to the information for some reason, and that I am failing in my service to others. I perceive that in order to be in service to others, I must have a visual measurement in this 3D world that shows me my impact. And that I must be the only exception to all my positive perceptions of truth I mentioned above.

Therefore, which is it?

This is where today's teaching came in. I began speaking out loud on my walk with Zoe (my sweet pup). I see regulars on my daily walks and surely they catch me speaking. Hopefully, they think I'm on the phone :)

Application of Beliefs and Perceptions

I experienced incongruity this morning as I spoke about recognizing two different applications of perception. By application, I mean following the perception in mind and body, which in turn creates a feeling in the body. When I believe something as reality, it generates emotional currents of energy. E-motion. This is the well known teaching of the partnership of thought and emotion.

My first perception is that everything is in perfect order, there are no mistakes, and that nothing in the universe is in opposition to my highest dreams for myself in joyful and loving service to others. This creates feelings of elation, expansion, joy, love, and coherence within my body and mind. All sense of effort, striving, tension, and push-pull dissolve. There is coherence between the heart, mind and body.
My second perception is that my current attempts to be in service to others is out of order, that somewhere I made a mistake and am not reaching people, and that the universe and I are not in alignment. This creates feelings of density, contraction, fear, sadness, loneliness, and decoherence, and it feels like utter shit.

The Impasse and Opportunity to Choose

Therefore, an impasse is reached.

What a beautiful precipice to contemplate. This is the top of the mountain viewpoint. This is where the higher self comes in to assist. I got to explore my mind and heart and decide what I want to create! This is the value of incongruity! It brought me to the place where I can make an entirely new blueprint for my life. I can give birth to something totally new and better than I have ever experienced before.

THIS is the time of conscious and aware choosing. Two things that are in opposition to each other cannot co-exist with equal intensity. One has to be dominant in polarity. The laws of physics work in exact order. What I believe in more strongly, is what the universe brings me more of. I must want more of that which I pay the most attention to! The universe says, "As you wish" with absolutely no judgement.

So, there I was standing at the crossroads of whether to continue to perpetuate a believe that is out of alignment with myself, or to drop this stale way of thinking and choose to go full steam ahead into the expansive knowing that all is well. I chose to be congruent with coherence and balance and expansion and abundance. All is well.

Rebirth and New Timelines: Leveling Up

I spoke out loud these words, "I officially choose to drop the belief that I can be out of alignment with Source on any level. I let go of any and all attachments, beliefs, contracts, or agreements that carry this vibration and energy and completely cleanse my energy in all timelines of that which no longer serves me. Here and now, I am reborn. I am excited, joyful, loving and have no conditions to the extent which my dreams can be created, received and lived. In the highest service to all beings, so it is."

MAN DID THIS FEEL AMAZING! With each "level-up" in frequency, there will come a time when I plateau. This is simply the way of ascension. At that plateau moment, an opportunity to choose through incongruity comes. When I choose the expansive path, I level up again. There are infinite expansion opportunities on earth. That is the sheer beauty, wonder, and joy of being in this experience we call Life.

Final Emphasis and Inquiry Prompts

Final emphasis: What we don't realize is that by NOT choosing at all, we continue to call to ourselves that which has our greatest attention. By not recognizing the incongruity of our own thoughts and emotions, we are actually making a choice. But it is unconscious. We are choosing to perpetuate that which we may not want, by lacking awareness of ourselves. We don't have the right to hate our circumstances if we don't take the time know who we really are. Nothing is by accident. Look for and appreciate when incongruity comes into your field of awareness.

Prompts for Inquiry:

Do you believe two things at the same time? We all do!

Here are some questions to ask yourself: